tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59177732012-01-19T16:51:36.818-08:00hope, coffee, and melody.<b>"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen in eternal." 2Corinthians 4:18 </b>Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.comBlogger631100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-89067708611227805882008-10-21T18:31:00.000-07:002008-10-21T19:57:35.241-07:00Howdy Doodle,Last weekend was quite impressive. I reiterated my last minute decision making preference. On Thursday, my plan was to get in my car on Friday and start driving towards Canada (16hrs). By Friday, I had a place to stay in New York, and two very amazing friends to spend the weekend.I drove up the New Jersey Turnpike Friday evening whilst drinking an amazing cup of joe from Wawa's Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-74471142233570674032008-10-15T20:49:00.000-07:002008-10-15T21:50:55.420-07:00Today consisted of two presentations. One with the board of directors at the Maryland Pilots Association and the other with Lt. Cmdr. Ditmar and Lt. Cmdr. Beach of the US Coast Guard Sector Baltimore... I'm starting to get this military jargon down.Our presentation to the board and it went very well. I usually find the presentations turn into more of a classroom atmosphere where we teach from a Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-9792157776620195212008-10-12T10:51:00.000-07:002008-10-14T09:19:03.868-07:00Family, friends, and random people:I want to share my current state of affairs with you guys; I've played the detached relative role for quite some time. I find myself talking more about my family and friends than directly. My stay on the eastern shores of Maryland has defined excellence, but at the same time I look forward to returning and sharing my experience. I'm super thankful for the Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-42941125960995803942008-01-20T20:17:00.000-08:002008-01-20T21:01:10.675-08:00So I've decided to blog once more.Lets recap Ryan's adventures since his 2005 post.Summer 2005:In May of 2005 I went to Belize on a mission trip with the Wesley Foundation to Corozal, BZ.Afterwards, I lived in Conroe, TX and ran the summer youth program for First United Methodist of Conroe. I roomed with a retired lawyer whom is the subject of my 2005 post. I learned a ton!Fall 2005 - Spring 2006Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-43996915426871653082007-07-02T20:43:00.000-07:002007-07-02T21:16:27.147-07:00 What Jesus Demands from the World#1 You must be born again. After reading the first demand Piper lists memories of international bible study flash through my head. I can remember how difficult and fulfilling it was describing this story of Nicodemus and the teachings that drive its plot. “You must be born again to enter the kingdom of Heaven”. “… How can a man reenter the womb?!?”. “That’s Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1122173676539758532005-07-23T17:44:00.000-07:002005-07-23T19:54:36.583-07:00Hello to the few and far between people who may end up reading this.My summer has been absolutely breath taking. I haven't updated this thingy, but I feel moved to today. Today evil stared directly into my eyes and taunted me as if nothing I could ever say or do would challenge its existence. I know there is injustice in this world, I’ve been told -- I am avid in keeping up with the news. I sat Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1108249511834230022005-02-12T14:28:00.000-08:002005-02-12T15:05:11.836-08:00Michael Goodwin introduced me to “Christian Crack” this past week. The substance is a book called Passion for the Heart of God. In Goodwin is a missionary mobilizer for Heart of God ministries. Their heart's desire is to have every desire that God's heart has, therefore they are a group who trains and equips missionaries to go to the unreached. They describe this area as the region enclosed Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1106981328835290952005-01-28T23:33:00.000-08:002005-01-28T22:48:48.836-08:00I don't understand my life.
When will I be able to fully devote myself to one cause?
Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1105857152076442812005-01-15T21:38:00.000-08:002005-01-15T22:39:54.933-08:00Headed to College Station tomorrow! Finally! I'm driving back as well so no more borrowing the exploder. The Christmas break has been just that, a break. I ran, swam, biked, read, and played computer games very consistently. That is a very good summary of my month off. Every day I would be a mixture of those things, which was awesome.
I finished A Longing for Holiness by Wesley. Very sweet book.Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1102233931480023652004-12-04T23:58:00.000-08:002004-12-05T11:18:34.533-08:00::Twilight:: Outside the darkness is slowly easing away as morning makes its mark on the night sky. Light filters across the horizon, and the dawning day washes over everything in its path, gradually dissolving the blackness in its wake. It is twilight. No longer night, but not yet morning.In Romans 7, Paul describes his Spiritual twilight I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1099205817486169372004-10-31T00:43:00.000-07:002004-11-01T15:06:00.823-08:00"The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart the mouth speaks"
Luke 6:45
"For where your treasure is your heart will be also"
Matthew 6:21
"Above all else, gaurd your heart for it is the wellspring of life" Proverbs 4:23
"Tremble, and do not sin; Meditate Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1098980539498602372004-10-28T08:20:00.000-07:002004-10-31T00:12:22.763-07:00:burn:"But if I say, 'I will not mention him or speak any more in his name ',his word is in my heart like a fire,a fire shut up in my bones.I am weary of holding it in;indeed, I cannot."Jeremiah 20:9so yeah this week wasn't all that fun, extremely stetching, but not all that fun. Knowing that I have once more grown in my dependence of God is awesome, but getting that dependence relies directly onRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1098601595485049502004-10-23T23:33:00.000-07:002004-10-24T00:09:49.093-07:00.:intentional disciple:.The battle has been painful this week, just as it should be(2Cor12). Why? well the details are frivolous, but in a nutshell, I prepared very quickly for 3 midterms and a paper causing myself to squeeze every second of my week for all that it was worth. It was amazing.So i ask myself this question, was i truly malleable?Can i honestly look back on this week and see how God Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1097996678204486332004-10-16T23:42:00.000-07:002004-10-17T00:30:19.763-07:00::Self-Destruct::So, this is the first time I've blogged in a long time. Its mainly been because I've had little time due to working and studying, but its partially because I felt that i might have been substituting blogging in the place of transparent relations with people. Well I suppose this summer was different since i was away for awhile. So why am i blogging now? Let me ask myself.
Self whyRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1093592098390748142004-08-26T23:51:00.000-07:002004-08-27T00:34:58.390-07:00John 15:9-11
"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete."
John 16:24
" until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joyRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1090109575546473122004-07-17T16:15:00.000-07:002004-07-17T17:12:55.546-07:00This summer has been a real pain to keep this thingy updated... since... i'm gunna be away for like.. 11 weeks.. so yeah don't expect much updates :p
--- Well im back to the wonderful confinements i call home. Well at least im back for about 10 hours, haha. UM Army was all that-- and i do mean all that. As tally mark four, this year was one of this most unique since.. well I was on staff..Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1088318459085966012004-06-26T23:05:00.000-07:002004-06-30T08:06:50.720-07:00well i'm back, I guess.
How was kamp? good question, but I would rather you ask "How wasn't kamp?". Kamp was everything. One of the things we teach the kids after archery is that the technical professional term for missing the bulls eye is sin. Guys Kamp "hit the mark" more than anything I have ever been apart of. The reason why 350 kids came to know Christ this month was because of the Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1084081975131755162004-05-08T22:52:00.000-07:002004-05-10T07:55:30.886-07:00what is real? what is true? is there such thing as coincidence?
Do you believe each and every tiny particle arranged of this world plays a vital role in your every day life? If we rid even the smallest thing from existence, would the world collapse as we know it? Would His intricate design be the same if he left one microscopic detail out?
God's blueprints of this world and its dimensions are Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1083661917057137962004-05-04T02:11:00.000-07:002004-05-04T02:15:56.043-07:00wow.
I have changed this past week more than probably any other in my life. There are so many things I want to say... but it is 4AM and i just got home. This song can sum it up for now...
Wait, I might hesitate
Am I a minute too late?
Please Lord, I need to know, this pressure's got me letting go
If I'm wrong, will I still carry on and end up where I belong?
*ah* I've never felt this way Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1083375729079357592004-04-30T18:42:00.000-07:002004-04-30T18:46:27.966-07:00Well I believe you when you would say your hand will guide me everywhere
well i receive the words you say every moment of every day,
well I will walk by faith even when i cannot see, well because this broken world will plant your will for me.
Help me to rid my endless fears - you've been so faithfully for all my years
with the one breath you make me need - your grace covers all i do. walk by Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1082704654719914892004-04-23T00:17:00.000-07:002004-04-23T00:34:13.810-07:00Upstream "rocked my face off" tonight. I got to hear a lot of really awesome testimonies and total jam out with the amazing praise band.. guys this upstream praise band is like no other.. they know how to rock out. Our section of 2 Corinthians we covered tonight was soooooooooo awesome and applicable to just me in general :)
I am so blessed. I deserve nothing that has been given to me.. my Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1082581211635431312004-04-21T14:00:00.000-07:002004-04-21T14:06:55.920-07:00alriiiighty.. how bout that 208 test??? (here is where i am going to be arrogantly self-centered) BOOOOYAA. Mission accomplished. anyhooo I've really been contemplating life.. mmm.. good stuff yeah?
where am I now, where will I be next semester.. should I do this engineering stuff??.. should i just quit school and live in Mongolia for 30 years? What is God sayin!!
The more and more that i Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1082359398359150832004-04-19T00:23:00.000-07:002004-04-19T18:08:39.733-07:00"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk abou them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframesRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1081883432368103142004-04-13T12:10:00.000-07:002004-04-13T12:14:27.763-07:00take back the reigns, I've done it again.
"For everyone is salted with fire" Mark 9:49
I've let fiery seasoning scorch the beautiful salt of sacrifice within.
Even still, His salt is impenetrable and thats the beauty of His love.
" For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers neither height or depth, nor anything Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1081495852129581132004-04-09T00:30:00.000-07:002004-04-09T00:34:41.106-07:00wow I love my Upstream group.. its just really awesome. Its really encouraging to see Michael engaged and loving the Lord the way he does. He has such an awesome relationship with his fiance and God! They have been the first excellent example of how a couple who love the Lord can truly glorify Him through marriage in my personal life. It was so rejuvenating to hang out with them tonight!
I Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1080979669998994282004-04-03T00:07:00.000-08:002004-04-03T00:11:31.090-08:00ahh man you guys should check this song out when sung by Shane and Shane - When I Think About the Lord.. its my favorite worship song..
when i think about the Lord
how He saved, how He raised me
how He filled me with the Holy Ghost
how He healed me to the uttermost
when i think about the Lord
how he picked me up
turned me around
how He set my feet
on solid ground
it makes me want to shout
Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1080116557743672222004-03-24T00:22:00.000-08:002004-03-24T00:26:04.890-08:00I wrote a little sumthin sumthin awhile back.. during a class I believe... it really encourages me when i am down. I read this poem and remember how great true faithfulness is and could be.
use me Lord
treat me with boldness
destroy my selfishness
show me Your Spirit
mold my heart
into a lover of your Word
for I am unworthy
of your unending grace
given to me
by Jesus' unspeakable sacrifice
AbbaRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1078818162742446182004-03-08T23:42:00.000-08:002004-03-08T23:45:49.013-08:00"I'm a prodigal with no way home, I put you on like a ring of gold and run down the aisle" - Derek Webb.
Wow Derek Webb gave such a great concert! I love going to concerts and becoming exposed to the heart behind the music. This is definatly why I am such a fan of Shawn Groves, these guys are awesome christians. To me, amazing lyrics beats hardcore rhythem any day--- yet amazing lyrics and Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1078473186425449482004-03-04T23:53:00.000-08:002004-03-04T23:56:07.076-08:00Life is beautiful.
I feel as though I am climbing mountains.
I know I am.
God defines everything I live for. Hes the love of my life. After Passion man I was cryin like a baby, I live for the Lord of Lords. There is nothing I will ever be able to do to understand how much it cost. Only through Christ may I be worthy of such. The farther I continue my walk with Christ, the more vibrant the Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1078100311091776932004-02-29T16:18:00.000-08:002004-02-29T16:21:26.263-08:00I defiantly fell in peters shoes this afternoon. I felt like i fit the role of the man who denied Jesus the third time. I knew I would have its inevitable. I was devastated. I got back to wesley and found a verse that comforted my heart.
John 16:20 "You will weep and morn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy."
How can I ever show enough gratitude?Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1077898611364609432004-02-27T08:16:00.000-08:002004-02-27T08:19:43.356-08:00Have you ever prayed at the feet of Jesus? imagine.
Broken to a point that only He would be capable of lifting you to your knees.
I was once asked this question. It touched my heart.
Are my prayers meaningful enough for the lover of my soul?
Is my pursuit focused on the unseen?
Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1077864597822967652004-02-26T22:49:00.000-08:002004-02-26T22:52:48.983-08:00 Integrity.
What does this word mean to me?
Integrity in a textbook is defined as "The quality or condition of being whole or undivided; completeness. "
When Christ was accepted into my heart, integrity was given a meaningful definition. Having complete integrity outside of a relationship with Christ is impossible! With him at your side, all the sinful things that aren't seen by the world canRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1077516413886461022004-02-22T22:06:00.000-08:002004-02-22T22:09:39.950-08:00Nothing is impossible, Nothing. God is great.
God has shown the script for my life this year, and so awesome that nothing I can say would be able to express the joy I feel in my heart, its indescribable. God has a script for everyone and it is awesome! Because by playing the role of servant, our jealous God is capable of being loved in the most proficient way.
He wants us, he wants you. Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1077177051068496162004-02-18T23:50:00.000-08:002004-02-18T23:53:31.983-08:00i've had a great day, yet it has been miserable.
i'm tired... yet i act totally rejuvenated.
i have a test tommorow, and i can't wait to start it.
worship was awesome tonight. God definatly led me to the Wesley foundation for obvious reasons. At the wesley I'm able to become integrated into an enviroment that is very laid back and has multitudes of good times all the time. I do mean ALL THE Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1076779799926862852004-02-14T09:29:00.000-08:002004-02-14T09:32:33.950-08:00this is gunna be about the ladies... how trivial is that?
its the infamous Valentines Day. i'm single, but i am no where near ill-spirited. God is molding a wife for me as we speak. She is being hand carved to fit directly beside me in this jigsaw world. Having to wait to meet her can only be a blessing. Instead of agony and lone sadness I can only wonder at how beautiful her soul will truelyRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1076661942067228312004-02-13T00:45:00.000-08:002004-02-13T00:48:13.966-08:00"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen, for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2corinthians 4:18
i just wanna start off saying wow, God is great.
proclaiming that statement with genuine words is the best medicine availible. I don't got alot to say for some reason, why? i can't say. my life has taken a 180 the past couple of weeks. I cleared Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1075689680111112692004-02-01T18:41:00.000-08:002004-02-01T21:00:07.326-08:00ok so i slide my card to open my Walton dorm door only to find the entire first floor flooded. Three guys were standing there while I was "soaking" in the situation. I decided to ask what happend, and one of the three pointed at the water fountain that was stuck on "high" mode. Then i thought back to the previous events of the day... and was like... whoops i remember hitting the fountain Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1075329039832868572004-01-28T14:30:00.000-08:002004-01-28T14:55:11.466-08:00Wow school has started! I am back into circulation with a different agenda every single day!!
A tough issue I have encoutered is who i should share my time with. Where should I serve?
Who do I spend time with the most? It is very possible that I've over dedicated my time. Last semester I was all about being "on fire" for God. Each opportunity that I was given to praise and serve him through Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1074584017769564862004-01-19T23:33:00.000-08:002004-01-19T23:35:36.890-08:00so the online journal hasn't been gettin much attention.
My life has taken a few different turns the past few weeks. Priorities changing constantly, infact they are still mostly undefined.
On the way to my Mexico mission trip I bogged myself into Eldredge's Wild at Heart, a very amazing revelation of a man's heart.
"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1073633538756845402004-01-08T23:32:00.000-08:002004-01-08T23:32:38.670-08:00ahhhhh my last night at home for the break....... time passes so fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am going to be saying ahhhhhhhhh my last day of work before i retire in like a week, I can already tell. Then when i'm subject to review before our eternal Father i'm gunna be like AHHHHHHHH my last review for the Kingdom of Eternity.
the world in which we are temporarily inhabiting calls us to "live forRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1073290758830198072004-01-05T00:19:00.000-08:002004-01-05T00:19:37.823-08:00"A man without a purpose is a ship without a rudder - a waif, a no man, a nothing"
- Thomas Carlyle
Just like the ship, I need something to steer my life. I need a light to save the very foundations of my soul when rocky shores emerge. I need an understanding of the great undertaking that grants my forgiveness. I need sacrafice.
But sadly, I remain in paradox. I proclaim what I need and Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1072733426449898642003-12-29T13:30:00.000-08:002003-12-29T18:40:09.033-08:00BE PREPARED! (a little boy scout action going on)
Things do and don't happen for reasons that none of us can phathom.
He calls us to be dressed for action with our lamps lit every day and night of the week. He is going to knock at a time unknown by any one except by the omnipotent universal creator. Knowing this allows time to control our lives.
How so?
Time is the interval seperating a Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1072339237264566682003-12-25T00:00:00.000-08:002003-12-25T00:00:53.613-08:00well my reflections on the past few days are kinda weary, definatly a slump due to the fact he keeps getting pushed to the side.
God is Great.
I am not.
I have passion for Him, and yet, I still deceive Him.
Life is depressing without God. Taking the reigns only makes things worse :/
I need him. I thrive on his blessings. I exist on his blessings. Noone said it would be easy leading a Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1071984596960362042003-12-20T21:29:00.000-08:002003-12-20T21:30:11.853-08:00there is definatly no word to describe humans better than "unique" or maybe a more flavorous "eccentric"
Without taking this into perspective, while meeting the multitudes in a new enviroment, deep feelings are accessible to the least of events! Making new friends, whether it be guy or girl, requires a patience that can sometimes only be found through ordinances of faith. There is always the "Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1071697734192854122003-12-17T13:48:00.000-08:002003-12-18T14:17:12.210-08:00So i was drivin around today doing some errands and listening to a burned cd i made this week of a few bands im being introduced to, and this song really stood out.
Hey Wait - Sanctus Real
So confined to the fear that you hold on to
Time unwinds and nothing seems
Promised you
Hey wait, i want to take you for a ride
Hey wait, i want to catch you
While there's time
Who'll pick you up Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1071557018982907522003-12-15T22:43:00.000-08:002003-12-16T05:46:31.910-08:00-
Life begins. How beautiful it is.
Beautiful. Splendorous. Magnificant.
As a toddler, we were totally oblivious to our own beauty, our miraculous conception. It takes a few years to define the purpose of exisitance before one can truely grasp why life is beautiful.
Why is life beautiful?
The gift of life was given through one sole undertaking, that is awesome. Life is beautiful because Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1070953604561257482003-12-08T23:06:00.000-08:002003-12-08T23:06:56.660-08:00Alrighty here I am.
Spent the entire day not studying four days before two final examinations.
Why don't i care? Because I had a great day.
I was able to experience His beautifully created day. The afternoon was so extravagently carved that i was able to find a grassy knoll, whip out some Mr. Warren and totally engulf in his glory. It was overwhelming paradise. So that lasted... about 4 hoursRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1070146400980864032003-11-29T14:53:00.000-08:002003-11-29T14:53:30.023-08:00wow, so i've got alot of information to memorize these next two weeks...
so... i need to ask the 8-ball some questions... it is definatly my source of wisdom..
will i remember the information after christmas? Ha no way.
will have have the GPR required to stay in my major? Ha no idea.
do i have any clue what classes im going to sign up for in 3 days? Ha no clue.
does my name alone define Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1069825715505834022003-11-25T21:48:00.000-08:002003-11-25T21:48:43.613-08:00wow dudes God is great.
the Ancient of Days, hes called
wonderfully magnificant in extravagance
clothing whiter than snow
at his feet, rivers of fire aflow
his will, wants, needs take all-
all of life's attention, not part
for part leaves whole behind
and behind is not a place to be left.
Twilight - The time of the day when the sun is just below the horizon.
A midway point of time, an area Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1069647512184817632003-11-23T20:18:00.000-08:002003-11-24T12:20:25.563-08:00Praise Jesus. Man we are only pawns placed strategically in order to honor and glorify you and you alone.
Lord's will for Jeff has been found. He truely made it. His aspirations and hard work found His will and now look, the boy's gift is reaching thousands of people. I can only envy the focus Jeff has found. His story is a prime example of what i fear the most: submitting to God's will whenRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1068448912859567912003-11-09T23:21:00.000-08:002003-11-15T10:29:15.820-08:00Lamentations has been hitting me all freggin weekend. Jeremiah must have really been a pimp for God to be able to express his emotions so vividly. Its as though he targets his words to my young frivolous generation who ale for Jesus but don't seek church. His mentorship is that of a wise elder hoping to enlighten a nieve youth of life and its trivias. At the peak of Jeremiah's message, at theRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1067529148174227292003-10-30T07:52:00.000-08:002003-10-30T07:52:19.306-08:00so i play chess right? in high school i was considered good within my youth group.. undefeated since our tournament in Mexico 2 summers ago. The truth in all actuality is that they were terrible. Its kinda how Churchhill described democracy... " The best of the worst". (Thank you Jon Bond). So when i came to college i started to play online alot during my classes... specifically engineering 111Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1067374233139974472003-10-28T12:50:00.000-08:002003-10-28T12:50:33.930-08:00Life is short. Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1066801274689720052003-10-21T22:41:00.000-07:002003-10-21T22:44:14.653-07:00 His will, not my will. Man before the sermon at breakaway started, i prayed. I prayed that my entire plan for life at the moment, my entire dream of the future.. was His will not my will.. The sermon TOTALLY HIT MY WEAK SPOT!!! OMGOSH! Breakaway tends to spank me every week!@!
Does he want me to be an Aerospace Engineer???? I don't know, I pray that he reveilRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1066709101348709222003-10-20T20:49:00.000-07:002003-10-20T21:05:01.440-07:00i haven't gotten around to posting one of these in a bit. This is actually in direct correlation with my walk with christ, sadly... I haven't been exactly living "on fire for god" but more so living "lukewarm", experiencing life inside my comfort zone. Today I wasn't able to wake up early like i usually do on mon/wend. and experience a beautiful morning on the way to the rec.. i was lazy.. i Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1066316258036916262003-10-16T07:57:00.000-07:002003-10-16T07:58:05.086-07:00 Great things come, leave, wither into the past. But the greatest thing of all contains none of these attributes. The greatest thing one might possess is forever and omnipresent. So many things in this life gain priority over the greatest thing whether we strive for perfection or not, its human nature. We are not perfect. Its the understanding that we have these self-satisfying priorities Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1066196953457716572003-10-14T22:49:00.000-07:002003-10-14T22:49:12.963-07:00My most looked forward to worship service once more takes my knees out! its the service which i can physically feel the holy spirit flow through my body and make my shiver all over... the presence of god is omnipresent.. i can't see it possible for a non-christian to attend BreakAway and not be converted then and there. There is so many signs of god there that i cannot possibly express them. Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1066024298531674072003-10-12T22:51:00.000-07:002003-10-12T22:52:33.770-07:00Sunday night, just finished my weekend long lab adequetly... its definatly B material so I am satisfied. Work was very long today... it went by so slow cuz it was so busy.. i hate working on sundays :( I feel the promotion coming very soon now, they are making me work more and more and the store manager talks to me alot... i will keep praying! The message tonight at the wesley really touched meRyanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1065935126800687562003-10-11T22:05:00.000-07:002003-10-11T23:52:50.110-07:00How was god present in my life today?
this question is something i feel is required to be present in a christian's heart.
Today i was blessed cuz i had a cool ASM let me off work a little early so i could make it to the game with Wesley, i was excited! I think this was a god thing for realio! the fellowship was awesome.
I think god is telling me something that i really need to explore the Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1065853219705622572003-10-10T23:20:00.000-07:002003-10-10T23:20:19.606-07:0080's rock my world! I got back from the BYX open party tonight, it was bumpin... i must admit the women's fashion of the 80's is definatly a turn off... lol. I went with marcus, we rolled hard haha. I met lots of fokes there and hung out with Tiffany for awhile. Well i can't think of much to say about tonight now.. i started a the begining of a long paper... gotta finish it tommorow plus make Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1065766545982770662003-10-09T23:15:00.000-07:002003-10-09T23:15:45.946-07:00This is Thursday night... the conclusion of a very ackward night. It had its blessings and depressions, but its all good im still kick'in right? The worst part was I didn't get to play with kids :(. That is 2 weeks in a row i haven't been able to make it, that is so uncool. My engineering group made me stay and finish a project due on tuesday... I was so sad :( .
A blessing would definatly Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1065714337865335342003-10-09T08:45:00.000-07:002003-10-09T11:10:59.190-07:00Thursday is a day i look forward to each and everyday. Why? well... no school on friday!! haha, that, by far, is not the only reason. I am ecstatic about the fact that i get to play with precious kids tonight! I love kids, thats all there is to it. Through highschool i participated in the PALS program my junior and senior year... (which is why i've never had chemestry or AP physics lol). The Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5917773.post-1065683254331977602003-10-09T00:07:00.000-07:002003-10-09T00:07:34.430-07:00I must attribute the idea of keeping an online journal to Marcus, a friend from the Wesley Foundation at A&M.
I Ryan Morton am a follower of Jesus Christ. This statement has been true since 11:35PM July 27th, 2000 in the sanctuary of a Methodist Church in Friendswood Texas after a worship service on a wendsday during a week of UM Army. Since that day, my walk began. I am a deep thinker, Ryanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04976096672239581697noreply@blogger.com0